I showed this to my mom because she asked to read it. She thinks I should go to some type of group for rape victims and share it because it might help them. I don't know. Please tell me what you think. I know it's not poeticly to form or anything, I wrote most of it while crying my eyes out so if it turned out perfect I would have been shocked.

Pain Relived

Some people have the privilege
To forget what they once saw,
But I am not so gifted
For I must relive it all.

I remember what I felt
That obsessive devotion;
It makes me sick to recall
That most foolish emotion.

I felt a desperation,
A need for him to love me.
Blinded by my strong feelings,
I allowed him to use me.

I remember what I felt
For I must relieve it all.
My brain will not accept
What my memory recalls.

He told me what he wanted,
And because I was his slave,
I pleasured him in darkness;
To him everything I gave.

He promised me one thing though
That he wouldn't pressure me,
If I gave him all the rest,
To give him my virginity.

But purity has fallen
Into the hands of death,
And the innocence of a girl
Has been put to final rest.

One dark night he told me
To close my eyes and wait.
I'm smart enough to know now,
But now it's much too late.

What happened that night I see
In dark nightmarish dreams,
As he made his first attempts
To defile and rape me.

I jerked away the first time,
But his temper quickly rose.
I only wanted to be loved;
This was the path I chose.

He told me not to move;
I was scared to disobey,
So I laid there and allowed him
To take my innocence away.

I should have pushed him off;
I should have told him no;
I should have screamed and shouted;
But at the time I didn't know.

He promised he would marry me;
He said it would be okay;
But now that it's too late,
I know I can't trust what I heard him say.

Oh, how I wish that I was gifted
To forget where I've been,
But I am forced to relive
All this pain I hold within.

The title made me think this'd be a fanfic 'bout Pain taking over the world.

<.<

But come to think of it... this is a very good poem. Made me think. Made me visualise what was going on. Made me imagine the girl's pain. Woo. Good poem, 10 thumbs up 8D

errr did this really happen 2 u? im not sure its really convincing, while i think rape (as in being attacked randomly) would probably be worse im not in any possition to give a informed oppinion, as for what 2 do with it go find a rape help site and submit it to the mod or admin they'll probably be better able to decide i it would be okay 2 put it up.

(that made me really sad nd if that guy exsits he a ******* ****)

Gifted. You are very gifted at writing, and this thing that happened to you, you should never let it way you down. Whatever you my think it is not your fault, and if you let it get to you then he won. Because that's what he wanted, to see your pain. I've never been though anything close to this, but yet I know just from this poem how you feel.

Yes, it really happened. I'm not too upset about it any more. It happened almost two years ago. Legally it was rape. I didn't consider it rape until over a year after it happened. I told a friend about it and he said, "So, your ex-boyfriend basically raped you." and I just looked at him like he was crazy and started to say that that wasn't what had happened and he just looked me straight in the eye and said, "No, he raped you." Then I told another friend and she agreed and I told another friend and he agreed and I ended up telling my mom and she agreed with that and I kinda had a mental break down for a few months afterward trying to cope with the thought that that's what had really happened.

LOL! man!

ARCHIE! not convicing??!?!?! XD geuss u dont know hwo to read feelings sh1t
that was sad as hell!

But i tend to think that happens to alot of girls. because virginity is so precious it may feel like its raped away always

id say, it was partial rape, because it kinda seemed like u let him

i mean if u stopped him or pushed him it would be rape =/

hmm this is different from your usual poems but i still love it anywayz 10/10 alot of emotion, i could tell you were feeling something when writing this

Yeah I will say the poem was really full of emotion I would give it a 10/10 and as someone else said (Dont feel like looking back) you really are talented in writing

Kai- Yeah, that's what I was thinking. Honestly, the first time he went for it, I jerked away and tried to get up. He tried a few times and I jerked away again and told him I didn't want to and he got really angry, held me down, and told me to stay still. I was scared. I'm sure I could have over powered him if I had really wanted to though, but I didn't want him to be angry at me, because he'd gotten really angry about my refusing to do other stuff with him before and he was really controlling. Whenever I'd refuse to do something, he'd make up these stupid rules that made my life hell and he basically threatened to cheat on me a couple times...I don't know, it was stupid, and I was to young and stupid to understand it all. I think it's made me more mature a lot in the end.

that suxs para but not alot of girls can recover from something like that.And that shows how strong and awesome you are

Yeah I agree totally with Matt it takes most girls A LONG time to even admit that it happened let alone write about it Yeah Para you rock girl!

haha kyuubi she said it happened almost 2years ago XD!

thata a long time
i think that once she found a real man she realized something


that a loser like that only held her back he was useless

cant use charm wit or pure sexiness too get some XD weak

the man she is with if i am right prolly strengthens her also

Yeah you right Kai That guys a loser lol

Yes, I'll admit that. I think that's important in any good relationship that the two people make each other stronger rather than hinder each other.

ha good stuff para that means he is good guy



ill admit too that when i have my weak moments my girl is there for me too

AGREED!!! XD