well i was jus wonderin wat 2 do cuz i was rly bored so im gonna write a poem ya!!!!! XD

sitting alone in this room,
as our time is passing,
is it really happening soon,
when will we be happy?

why is it we're waiting for death,
2 come knocking,
why not just try 2 live,
instead of just laughing.

what have we done for this world,
how r we really great,
because if u ask me,
we'll always just be stuck on this plate.

ya....it suxxs cuz i jus rote it out of nowere.....XD

comment plz!

k so 4 u guys who read dat oter part of a story i wrote if u want da rest(actauly im not totaly done yet) ill finish it & post it:]

but u gotta comment me & say u want more!!!!

well heres a book im workin on ill write one chap & u comment ig u want more!:]

well its not rly anime based but i promise ill do a story naruto based soon!!!!^-^

& dont wry wen im writin my stories i use whole words & propper grammarXD

here we go.......

Still Here
By~Destiny(not gonna jus giv out my last nameXD)

Prolouge
Memory has an unquencable thirst for hurt, setting a target at the very weakist parts of your heart. Since you have not only bad memories but good ones also its all alright, right? Wrong. Each good memory will transform into a burden once a disaster strikes. Joyful memories of christmas morining with mom and dad will only hurt when they perish. True love's kisses will only sting ur memory once you've caught them with someone else. And the ost regretful thing of all, memories will not just disappear as the ashes of a fire will. They will linger there waiting to pounce on you as soon as even the thought of "happiness" passes through your mind. Maybe it hurts so much because of our anger that we can't forget or maybe it is that we only "miss" them. Why mourn what god has done? Because we are naive beings in the clouded world of our own mind.

PART 1: MEMORY

Chp.1~The Beginning
I sat on the swing swaying back and fort, tears stinging my eyes as they rolled down my puffy cheeks. Here I was a 14 year old girl crying her eyes out because she was homesick.I was visiting my grandparents up in Virginia for a month and I desperatly missed Florida, and yeah you got me, my mommy and daady. Lucky for me no one comes to the park at 9 at night so I was left to cry alone all I wanted. It was so quiet tonight that I could swear I heard the wind wrippling back and forth when there was no breeze what so ever. Then out of nowhere I heard a deep voice out of nowhere whisper"Hey you know its illegal to be crying all alone in a deserted place in some states, known to realy screw a persomn up." I turned around to see a tall boy with dark brown hair right above his shoulder,messy and out of place, and two of the deepest blue eyes I had ever seen. A sly smile aroused on his perfectly porpotioned face."surpirised much?" he managed to say through a heart stooping grin. 'Ya" I mumbled.
I had to cheer myself up I mean here standing infront of me was a guy with the perfect face and a great body to go with it.I smiles my bigest smile and felt my face and body cheer up again. Back to same old Brooke, happy, potimistic, bubbly, Brooke. He looked at me clueless. "What up with that" he aked confused" " Just good old happy Brooke Lovef" I held out my and me smile grew "and you are?" i said singsongy. "Someone that really hates overly happy people like you" he replied pointing at me "What up with that?" he repeated. "Well thats who I am like it or leave it" And it surely was, always had been since I discovered just how boring it was to be unhappy and how much easier it was to just smile and laugh.....no matter what.... Crying in a deserted(well not so deserted now) park was just a stage and I had cleared it.
"Hm spunky girl guess that will make up for all of that you konw, Happiness" he grinned at me and I literally felt my heart pounding againt my chest.
After that it was just like"click" instant friends or as he says "buds". We talked about life, love,friends, enemies, the whole nine yards. During the whole time we were talking I didn't even know his name, we were just to much into talking to notice it. When we both discovered that our favorite song was Mr.Brightside by The Killers he insisted he call me "Mrs. Brightside" and how could I ever say no to that grin? But
I needed a name for him so I decided on Mr.Glommy even though he isn't really gloomy but he isn't the happiest person ever.
The question of his name didn't arise again until I heard the voice of my grandma yelling to me" Brooke,Brooke hurry in honey its about to ranin soon!" She drew soon out so much that it sounded more like sooneeeee. Then the question popped into my head and I just had to know." Whats your name Mr. Gloomy?" , he stared at those big blue eyes shining like the ocean and I had been needing a swim.' Well Mrs.Brightside, Austin Markley has to go home its gonna rain soo-neeeeee!!!" He left me there with a huge smile and a melting heart."Austin Marly...."i whispered to myself and started to the house.
I didn't know the next time, if even there would be a next time, I would see Mr.Gloomy.



thnxs u all for readin dont 4get 2 comment & luv u all!!!!~destiny~

hey everybody im backie!!!!!...finaly....XD

well i got bac a week ago but our internet wasnt workin jus got it fixed 2 day!!!!!

so wats up?????^-^

by da way a awesome person asked me 2 post dis so here u go!!!!!:]

I was wondering if you could link to http://www.fanhistory.com/index.php/Naruto and http://fanhistory.com/wiki/Category:Naruto_fans , and to help write the history of the Naruto fandom and improve the encyclopedia of members of the Naruto fandom.

thnxies!!!!!:]

im goin 2 my grandmas 2morow so i wont be on 4 awhile ill miss u guys!!!!!!:[

well i will be back i promise it wont be lk last time.....ya....XD

well anyways guys i have something 2 ask u(seriously 2 da dudes)

wat do guys do wen they lk a girl.....well u prly wont answer me in a blog but wateva.....

im out~destiny^-^~

wow......hvnt done this in awile so here i go.....im goin 2 stanton & i cnt wait!!!!!!^-^

only bad thing is dat my dad says i hav 2 keep strait a's r i wont ever get a car.....which is impossible!!!!

but i will try & ill see if i can do it!!!!!:]

anyways i hav dis crush

& i rly hate it cuz its a guy i well....hateXD

hes soooooo mean & perverted & i hate perverts but i jus rly lk him.....god cant stop thinkin bout him....:{

well anyways im out~destiny~:]

She would always smile and laugh at the world as happy as could be that you would of never of imagined the pain she was going through. I met her 3 years ago, when I was 13. We became best friends in a moment and would talk constantly. She would never show a little sign of saddness or pain and now that I think about it thats just so amazing. One day she just broke down and started crying. When i saw her face I couldnt take it.....she just looked like she was in so much pain. She explained to us how he dad was dieing and no one seemed to want to help, how her mom was in the hospital pregnant with a baby her body just couldn't handle, and how her bestfriend had been murdered last week. After she was done telling us this she just smiled and told use not to worry,it'd all be okay. I couldn't beleive how strong she was. I mean she had to go through all of this still smiling and laughing not once braking down. I couldn't help but feewl I just had to protect her now from the pain atleast I'd try my best to.

My parents just told me that we're moving tommorow. I can't believe it this means today is the last day I have to spend with her. When I tell her she just smiles and says its okay she just wants to make one promise with me.She says take me to the ocean,i've never been there and i really wanna go!!!!. But I'm leaving tommorow theres no way i say. She says then we'll meet up,pinkie promise? She holds out her thumb. Pinkie promise i say and I hold out my pinkie too. She smiles and then we say our good-byes.....

This morning before we leave I get a call from her parents. She died this morning in a car accident. It feels like I can't breath anymore and my chest hurts. That girl I feel in love with is gone and I didn't even get to keep our promise....