ok im doing this so i dont clutter this place up wit my poems and im going to ask all poets do the same plz (especially little hinata, kasumi hitomi, paradox, and whtfog) so that i can read them finally during my absece lolz well here they are:

sweet memories:

I slowly close my eyes
Remembering everything was just fine
The way you smile, cry, and blush
The things i loved so much

I remember that beautiful day
You told me to go away
You were beatin up by some boys
Like you were some cheap toy

I punched away their pride, and glory
Till finally they said sorry
You've clung to me ever since then
Like you were one of my own kin

Annoying, stupid, dumb were the words i thought
When it was only me the one you sought
But as the tough years went by
You were alway by my side

I remember how i sighed
When you kissed me for the first time
We giggled, kiss, and hugged
As i protected my only love

Then that fateful day went by
As i laid in my bed and cried
Then i remembered what you said to me
You said no matter what happens, you'll always be with me

why'd you leave:

Why did you leave me with all this pain
As I whisper your name in the rain
Your face I wish I could see
As you walk here beside me

Ever since you left, ive lost my faith
My heart fills with nothing but hate
Every night I got on my knees and prayed
But he took you anyway

As I cook dinner for one
I start to cry when I see the setting sun
Because now everyday at eight
Ill never be able to see your beautiful face

I lay on my bed trying to sleep
As my tears leak with grieve
Before you died you said ‘I love you’
I griped your hand and said ‘I love you too’

pain is for ever:

Im speeding down a road
Shivering cause the wind is so cold
Speeding so i can drown my misery
As i remember that painful memory

I came home early to surprise you
I always knew
But the truth was still hard to see
As i walked on you making love to someone besides me

You stopped breathing
When you saw me leaving
Grabbing my arm, sobbing and crying
Saying you were sorry, but i thought you were lying

I start to cry, feeling like a fool
As i start to loose control
I run off the bridge, dodging a car
As i fall into the dark

Im speeding down a road
Shivering cause the wind is so cold
Speeding so i can drown my misery
As i remember that painful memory

your gone:

i tell them your not dead
as i walk up to your bed
your face i touch
waiting for that smile i love so much

as i feel that your so cold
i start to hug you from head to toe
they pat my back saying there sorry
i just look at them like their retarded

their faces i start to pound
as they slowly put you in the ground
i start yelling there talking rummage
as your dad punched me in the stomach

a nightmare it would seem
as i awoke wishing it was a dream
i look around for your bed
then sorrow soaked in as i realized you are dead

black sheep:

My heart start’s to swell with pain
As they push me into the rain
I don’t know why I still care
When they start to glare

Once again, I was pushed aside
As everyone else got a ride
You said you were sorry, but I knew you were lying
As I came to the family party uninvited

I was the one punished
Because I got jumped by my cousins
My mom starts to cry with me
Saying she’s sorry, there only punishing me because of her history

Slowly my pain starts to fade
As it is replaced rage
How dare they hurt my mom
The only one that hugged me when I started to sob

I trained hard, getting stronger
As i started to take my first step into becoming a monster
Now i was the one smiling every night
As i started to send my cousins to the hospital, after a fight

Their hate started turn into fear
Running every time i came near
Every time they put fear on a face, it would be me they would see
At least i gave them a reason to hate me

so close:

I walk down this hallway
that seem to have no doors
looking for you
the one that i adore

i finally come upon a door
but im afraid whats on the other side
i slowly open and look
and fell to my knees and cry

your with him again
the one that makes you laugh
the one that knows you
the one that can calm your wrath

i stay in the distance
wishing it was me
as he kisses you
whats this feeling i start to feel, is it jealousy

i have dreams
torturing him alive
i was about to do it
but then i stop, why

i look at the pathetic man in front of me
he starts to plead, with his voice all raspy
he starts to tick me off
but then i think, this guy makes you happy

i let him free
telling him to go
not knowing who i am
but i think he knows

slowly i start to fade
into the darkness from which i came
never entering you life again
cause our love could never be the same

insecurity:

Im on the verge of insanity
Yet noone wants to help me
Im I too skinny, or am I to fat
Give me a chance, I can change all that

I look in the mirror in disgust
As my real face turns into dust
The mirror I break
As I see the face that I hate

All the girls laugh and sneer
As they make fun of my hair
I run to the bathroom, and start to cry
Why cant I be beautiful why

Tonight im going to ease the pain
As I take the razor from which it hanged
As I slit my wrist, appeared a long red mark
Then I slowly fell into the dark

society:

disgusted i start to look around
men have changed into hounds
never happy with their lives
as they beat their wives

kids are disrespectful, every word is a lie
as they use over the counter drugs to get high
doing stupid things, cause their friends dare them
where were their friends, as there world become dim

im disappointed, his words were so touching
as realize Martin Luther Kings work was for nothing
goverment says racism is over, thinking they were clever
please racism is worst than ever

murderers are on the rise
as kids are locked up to survive
a mother starts to cry, when she awakens
as from her house, her little girl was taken

fake religion has been made
as people turn to it in fear, to be saved
freedom is something they never tasted
as their lives are wasted

what is this hell you might ask
as you see these things nightly
thats whats funny, this is society

my mask:

i hate you, i hope your death isn't fast
because of you i have this mask
the real me people cant see
because theres nothing left of me

laughter, joy, peace, security is what they think they know
but on the inside is really tears,sadness,chaos, and sorrow
i just laugh and shake my head when people talk about religion
what kind of god would do this to me and why what was my sin

im sick, and i wish i could die
i saw my mother get brutally killed and i didnt even cry
i could have let justice do its thing that night
but through this i saw a flicker of light

tonight it ends
tonight i'll kill my own kin
tonight i'll kill the creator
but tonight ill also kill the monster

k also this can be like a lounge like at coffe shops i go to, you can talk about my poems why you like them, did i give you ideas and what not lolz and you can even bug me for coming out a new one lolz

Nice idea, I actually thought about doing it, but was too lazy....
*sigh* no I HAVE to

lol up , and curse you vio for changing bb codes >.< how do i use the spoiler tags now lolz

Lol. XD btw, checked your PMs lately?

*gasp* well its your fault for killing bob2 lolz srry

I can't remember spoilers
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I thought you got a new assistant! and you know you hated bob2!!

dont cry there not working anymore anyways vio changed the bb codes

LOLZ OMG mimori DIED

Well actaully I changed My Desktop so I can't remember anyone but Hiriko and Mimori

?????? who are they again

this is dedicated to sama bear ^.^

My reason

When i would cry from pain
my sorrow you were able to tame
when ever i fell into the slumps
you were always there to help me back up

i kept my heart locked away
but you were able to unlock it anway
now im free from the cage like a dove
as you flood my heart with your love

nobody touched me, they did not dare
because if they did you would be there
when im alone im weak and wrong
but together we stand righteous, and strong

this is why i love you
this is why i need you
people wonder if living has any reason
i nod, and smile cause your my reason

yay for me i wrote a sweet poem ^.^ didnt know i had it in me lol well there it is ^.^

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*hugs*

great poems although i only read the first two, its just too much reading for me, but they are good

i wish i could write poems, i have no writing skills at all

My Reason was very sweet poem. Had depth, honesty, and meaning behind it. The topic and the idea have been extremely overused, but it came from your heart, and that's all that really should matter.

*sigh* this is happening and im hating it, before i left i asked my friend who is an awesome poet wats wrong with me and showed her my old work compared to my new and she laughed and said it happens to everyone and i put on a confused look and she laughed again saying that give it time, dont force it and well as you can see i didnt listen to her ive been forcing it trying to break it but nothing,zip, notta.So im going to try her advice so this will be my last poems for a looooooooooong time lolz or till i get my writing spirit up or whatever is wrong with me lol

Yeah, when you first start writing poetry, you have a life time of experience to draw from. Than you start writing like a poem a day, and soon all that experience is used up. You just have to wait until you acquire more fuel for your poems. Wait until you feel inspired again. And if it doesn't happen for a year or so, you can force it and you should come up with good poetry again because you've got a year full of emotion that has yet to be expressed in that way. That's the way I look at it anyway

thanks para, if i didnt know anybetter id think you were a philosphere in real life ^.^

Define philosopher, lol. I haven't gone to school for it or anything, but I do have an interest in philosophy and do debate several things with my friends. I enjoy the mental stimulation. I've read several religious texts, and am familiar with most religions. I've read Plato, and I have a good understanding of psychology which I've picked up from my favorite hobby of watching other people interact. I'm in tune with the emotions of others, so it is usually easy for me to understand where someone else is coming from. I also have a very strong sense of logic (I need one to balance out my strong sense of emotional empathy or it'd get me in trouble). If you know anything about or believe in astrology at all (I have no definite opinion on it, but if there is no truth behind it then there are some very disturbing coincidences in my life, for example, all my friends are Leos), I was born on a cusp. I'm a Leo with a Virgo leaning. It mixes pride with sympathy and understand, fierce physical ability and desire with a caring gentle purity. So I guess I'd consider myself an amateur philosopher.

lolz guys

Matty please IM me

...well here is a poem....brit brit just rate plz dotn say anything plz

RAG DOLL:

I feel like your rag doll
you make me feel so small
i sit high up on the shelf
why do i torture myself

you only take me down
when hes not around
happy, and joy you make me feel
as my heart you start to steal

you tell me things that i think are true
but when he comes back, im up on the shelf again sad and confused
when he kisses you, you giggle and snear
seeing this make my eyes start to tear

i would probably be better off in the rain
but yet i sit through this pain
and ill stay on this shelf for who know how long
and be played with when hes gone