Alright good. xD Then I'd have to hunt you down and knock some sense into you.

XD u wish no offense I'm just kinda scary to people who haven't really met me XD i scare Ale and them sometimes Oh Kasu btw I'm a middle schooler no well I'm doing high school work but XD XD

...so? O.o

I'm only a year older then you are. xD It's not like it's illegal for me to knock some sense into you or anything. xD And even if it was, I would still do it, because it would be for your own good.

See? I have nothing but your best interests at heart.

Also? Yeah,. People think I'm scary too. Even people who HAVE met me. Even people I know really well.

XD trust me i'm stronger than I look Chloe is scared of me which makes me laugh sinc e she cuts XD and she thinks I'm over the top emo

Hmm...if you were over the top emo, you'd sound more depressed. xD And wouldn't use "xD".

I'm stronger then I look too.
Most people don't believe me, sure...
But that's because they've never seen me flip guys over my shoulder like a wrestler. xP

XD U haven't met me unless im really close to u I speak in monotone and barely laugh even Nicole who I am really close says I always seem depressed adn XD she might call over the top because I told her if she wanted to end her life to us a razor more pain the others but hanging seems better XD XD

xD I would have laughed.

I don't speak in a monotone. I don't normally speak at all. xD I'm really quiet, plus the fact that I look like I'm dead, the combination tends to freak people out. I laugh at them. xD

You and I would be a very formidable pair. O.o

New Poem it sucks so yeah:
At the Edge

Eyes closed as I step out on the ledge
Memories return your face you voice your eyes that stared so deep
The tears come as I start to take a step
I wonder where we went wrong
I loved you, you loved her
As I take on last step I feel the wind pulling me as I fall and my tears hit my face
I close my eyes tighter and whisper your name one last time wishing for your happiness

Awwww Kawaii poems. ^_-

ta-da new poems XD

Abyss

Falling into this abyss
No protector and the tears fall
Wondering whats happened to me
Were is the girl who would not fall
Were is the man that promised her he would love her forever
How could i have let myself get so weak
How could i have believed his promises
How could i have let myself fall in love with him
And yet i regret nothing
I smile and remember when he was falling there was a light for him he said
I close my eyes to keep the tears from falling with me no light no nothing
Falling seems so easy no fighting to hold on i let it cover me
I wonder why i ever held on the falling so peaceful until his name his face come up i remember
Struggling falling breath being cut off and i wonder if its worth it and the answer is yes
The tears fall as i whisper i'm sorry i love you the only words i couldn't say
Dying is not hard if you don't hold on
Falling is bliss if nothing is left and thats all there is nothing

Beauty Is **school verision**

Beauty is passion
Beauty is life
Its love
Its perfection
Beauty is you
Beauty is me
Beauty is something hard to define
Is it you is it me?
Watch the world watch the sky
Beauty is all those things
Life is beauty
You are beauty
Beauty is never ending
Beauty is nature

Him

Every thought of him
Ever beat of my heart belongs to him
I wonder now after admitting my feelings am i anymore his than i was before
I can't help but cry everytime my love leaves
I can't help but yearn for his return
Every worry about him over him
Every fear for him about him
A pet?
A love?
What am i now i cave to his wishs his commands but i see nothing wrong with this
I hate to be someones toy someones pet but i gladly bend myself to his will
Is this love or idiocy
Protecting him loving him my only dreams
Adoring him all i can do my teacher my lover my protecter my charge my savior my angel my world
But this has its price
Love is never 2 sided it seems i worry now and forever that my love is vain
Is it wrong is it right or do these words even matter
I stumble i fall all in vain or not so much?
The moments i live i wonder if the love is true or if my mind tricks me
But even in moments of alone even in anger i can bring myself to revoke my love for him
A man so perfect so right it should not be possible
A girl so small so meek so wrong no one should be as bad as she
Can these two pieces ever truly fit?
Could they love each other so wholey?
Has the idiot girl lost her chance in unsureness?
Or will the bright angel stand so perfect and strong next to her?

No name

Babe you can have whatever you want
But know the minute you're choice is made if its not me i'm gone
Because babe i care i do but i'm not the consilation prize
And while you think i'm cruel and uncaring i'm not
I've gotten along 15 years without you and i can go on 15 more
And babe don't think i'll be ok with your middle term
So me or her babe and better choose quick because wait to long and you'll lose them all
And i know this is lame to write it all out
But like i could ever say it to your face
And i hope to god you can get this babe that you're not so dense to know its about you sweetheart
I'm sick of playing this sweet devoted little girlfriend
Its not my style to be like this but its what you wanted
And when i lose the act its all downfall for you babe
And hold out on your words babe watch what you say because when you piss me off your damned
Not my way to threaten but baby boy you've made it clear without some pressure it'll never happen
And sweet heart learn real fast i'm not some pretty little girl that will obey you
She might bow down to your every command
And if thats what you want then pick her
And winding down and some how the music i didn't realize was pounding is slowing to hear your response
And softly you say...i won't answer
And the pain i take as i hold back tears and act indifferent and say i'll choose then
And there you go with her be happy and i'll act as if i don't care
Close my eyes and act as if it doesn't matter
Be with her is the only thing i can say when i feel my throat close up and the tears sting my eyes and sadly knowing
I can never show you this lest i forget i'm supposed to not care

Tainted

I close my eyes and instead of the normal pain of memories your face clouds my dreams
A relief a break from the breaking
Until i recall the words that haunted me the words of your curtain call the pain at the time i could just pull you back
But no longer have i that soothing effect on my angel it seems that you no longer need me but to keep me close
And while fear swallows me i can't help but follow you anywhere
Your light is all i need to know the innocence has not been fully stolen but at those times when you turn dark and the hatred you can not fully hid takes over
I fear that this time your light will be gone and knowing that you are not mine and i am not yours those moments fear me most that i may lose the last bit of you
And while some part of me will always hold on I no longer know why other than nothing you do could ever possibly make me hate you
Your light draws me but not just that your heart and pureness for you are everything i could want and nothing i could have
Darkness taints Light so while it is almost addicting to want to reach out and touch your pureness i never could without taking what is left
And as that is the issue between you and I
So as the dreams start to slip in its your face and your memories while my heart surges out to touch you i never can
But as it goes on my heart is barring and angry to watch you be beaten and riducled the Darkness that always threatens you overtakes me
The fear of tainting you is nearly enough to keep at bay how i feel
Until your eyes close and i know you aren't listening anymore i can let it out without fear of ruining my angel

Way

The way she breathes and smiles it all changes
His words capture attack and envoke a all new essence
And theres nothing there the world is dim and nothings real
What happened to the pretend the world
What happened to the girl with lidded brown eyes now hiding behind white eyes
Its all his wish she wonders if its the way its meant and the way it wanted
Its the pain the love the everything
And its the nothing the closedness
Her eyes hidden his shown
And wonderment fills the air

Words

Pick up the pencil
A need to be
Knowing her one talent is being stolen
Unique in a fleeting way
Careless cruel of others to take this
Confidence dwindling
Words to cruel echoing in her head
Never good enough they have to take it
Drawer, desginer, musican, dancer
Their talents no longer enough
They want the poets now
Closing in making her write more and more
Furious at every new poem she writes
Pained eyes as she reads their attempts
Selfish, horrid pride when their best is worse than her worst
But trying trying they go never giving up
Cruel intentions all around
Words no longer good enough
Take whats hidden under it all
The poet take it now
Steal it before its threat comes out
Bound by talents the talentless one
True talent haunts to most
Words to stop its mystic power
Spinning the future in its words

No name

To live a world so impure to die in a place so filled with hate
Whats the point the reason
Nothing is as it seems people say but it seems to be exactly what it seems
Death and destruction at every door mothers holding dead children fathers leaving in a blink of eye
People using people for their own gain
Its point blank but people wish to see the "good"
When they fool themselves there is no true good in this world
The only slight good thing is Love and that is evil as well it comes at its price your life
People are fools if they believe different
They say the praises to the dead damn themselves in this nothingness and wish for more for better

Addiction

Watch these people go
So much ambition and life gone in a blink of a eye.
Drugs, alcohol, addictions of every kind turn these lifes inside out.
A beautiful woman corrupted so badly sickly dying because the Addiction to lose weight
A beautiful man shining watching knowingly hiding from the addictions
Unknowingly feeding his own addiction
A dark eyed girl paling not wanting to fight the addiction to pain.
Addictions destroying lives killing one starts another
Hers helps his helps him hide in fear of her hurt
His strengths hers making it almost uncontrollable

Breathe Me

Sickening tugs there yet not what they once were
Playing a song that I am deaf to your voice sings through
Her words phase me less by my love only swells
Your cruel words make me whimper under the thunder of Your anger
The pain never stops only numbs
Lost the sickening jealousy
The love grows Your calming words
Curious pain poking prodding
Smiling at Your name but blinking back tears
Loves not fading
If its not fading am i?
Or is she?

Beauty Is **full**

Beauty is passion
Beauty is life
Its love
Its perfection
Beauty is you
Beauty is me
Beauty is something hard to define
Is it you is it me?
Watch the world watch the sky
Beauty is all those things
Life is beauty
You are beauty
Beauty is never ending
Beauty is nature
And beauty is you
Beauty is us babe
And i need that beauty back
And baby my beauties yours
And boy i need you for beauty
Love is beauty
And I need our beauty again
Because no one elses beauty is as good as ours
So baby boy lets bring our beauty out to the world to show how we fit
Like two pieces in a puzzle and the puzzle completes with us and that is beauty