Only One

I miss you.
Though I wish I did not feel this way about you.
I can't stop it.
I regret, I feel pain, it hurts to think of you.
I want only your happiness, but my heart's jealousy just won't allow.
I remember time and time again how I destroyed it all.
The beautiful sweet bliss which I once called home.
That place in your heart where I lied that place I knew as paradise.
The place I wish I could never leave.
No matter how close or far knowing that my heart was with you and yours with mine.
It was enough, more than enough to be happy.
More than enough to make me miss you.
More than I would ever want to make me long for your love.
I can't forget you. I won't forget you.
You'll never be just a memory.
Thinking of you will always bring both pain and joy.
You stood still, waiting patiently just for me, when time and time again I hurt you.
You just waited, you loved me, just showing me kindness and the love of an angel.
I wish I could fix my mistakes. I wish.. I wish.. but wishing gets me nowhere.
By the time I realized my mistakes it was too late.
I love you now, I loved you then even though I hadn't realized you could not tell.
I was blinded by my adolescence, blinded by a false joy in everything else that did not matter.
I could not see you suffering lonely, longing for me to care for you.
I will love you always without fail, forever through pain and suffering, through rain or shine.
I want just once again to feel that touch of an angel.
Though I know. I feel. That I am, just a foolish wolf that cries his heart out for the moon of which he cannot have.
So I'll watch you from afar, I won't let harm come to you, I don't want you to feel that pain again. I'll protect you.
I'll love you always. You will never be just a memory to me.




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